Saturday, April 24, 2010

April 24: My Poor Neglected Blog

Wow - this is the longest blogging hiatus I have taken.  It was totally unplanned.  Here is what I've been up to:

As many of you know, I've been virtually unemployed for nine long months.  My old employer called and asked me to fill in for a week and a half while they were short staffed.  I have one more day of work (Monday).  It will be some nice additional money that is much-needed.  With the depression issues I've had, going out and working full time is a big accomplishment.  I feel like this has been a big step towards recovery.

I'm still plugging away at the diet break.  I just have a few more days of it before I can go back to my comfortable eating habits.  I've discovered I am far more comfortable dieting than just eating what I want.  Weird, I know.  Although I have enjoyed eating ice cream!

My 9 year old daughter broke her wrist by, of all things, serving a volleyball in gym class.  She is now sporting a hot pink cast.

My best friend gave birth to her beautiful new daughter, Noa. Here is a picture of this sweet little baby:

So needless to say, after work we have gone straight to the hospital to visit this precious little bundle - oh, and of course, my friend and her hubby too!

I think I could BRAID her hair it's so long and thick!

So today's agenda is to try to make some sense of the chaos that is my house.  I'm making a big list because it thrills me in some silly way to check things off of a list.  Lots and lots to do.

I've discovered that I need to be far more organized in order to have healthy eats on hand and get at lest SOME exercise in when I'm working.    Tomorrow I'm going to do lots of food prep to have my yummy food on hand.

I'll be back with more posts this weekend.  Sorry for neglecting you!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

April 20: Still Diet Breaking and Other Miscellany of Life

I really really really prefer dieting.  I like structure and rules and all that kind of stuff.  I cannot wrap my brain around the fact that I am purposely consuming more calories than I want.  I know this is the right way to go, but, boy it's tough!

Yesterday I finally hit my target of 2200 calories but I felt nasty because I ate junk all day.  Blech.

Today has been nice healthy food -  I did get some cool ideas about adding a teaspoon of molasses or honey here and there, just to help things add up, so I will do a better job hitting my targets.  Other high cal, low volume foods: eggs, cottage cheese (ick to both) nut butters - super yummy, and of course, my fave - ice cream!

I just feel better when I keep things on the healthy side.

I missed a lot of Zzzzzzzs last night.  My youngest daughter (9) sprained her wrist and was in a lot of pain, despite the splint and the Ibuprofen. Poor little cupcake was up a few times in the night crying.  Then I woke up with the startings of a cold - mild scratchy throat, stuffy head, yucky feeling.  Blech.  I took some cold medicine which certainly doesn't stimulate my appetite any.

I've been doing some temp work the past week and a half, and I'm finding it tough to get a walk in - I get home just wiped out mentally.  This is something I'm going to have to work on.  I've been unemployed throughout this diet so I've had all the time in the world to do what I needed to for my health and fitness.  This weekend, I am going to spend some time planning things more carefully so the eats and workouts are well on track in the future.  I refuse to go back to being the fat chick that whines "I don't have tiiiiimmmmmeee to do all that....."  I have summarily executed that fat chick and she is not being resurrected, darn it!

I was off work today because I had a doctor's appointment and an appointment with the priest for Rachel's upcoming baptism.    The doctor's appointment was great.  My doctor is very happy with the way the new meds are working . Yay!!!  Finally the magic cocktail for my own personal brand of anxiety and depression!  All of my blood work was great - clean living rocks!  The appointment with the priest went nicely too - he is very nice and thrilled to do the baptism.

So that's all I got today, folks - nothing too exciting, just strange complaints about being forced to eat. ???

Sunday, April 18, 2010

April 18: Diet Break, Day 3

I would have never ever imagined how hard it could be to eat more calories.  Since I started this journey at well over 200 pounds, you would think eating would come easily for me.

Two days ago, I embarked on my Full Diet Break, as per my fave new book, Guide to Flexible Dieting.  According to the book, I should be eating at or near maintenance, which for my height and current weight means 2000-2200 calories.  So far, I've managed about 1700 calories each day.

I guess when you spend 5 months completely overhauling your lifestyle and eating habits, it becomes ingrained to choose the lower calorie options.  It becomes second nature to get lots of your intake in fruits and veggies instead of calorie-laden grains.  I am happy that I've learned my lessons so well, but it sure does make a diet break difficult.

I bought ice cream today for the first time since I started my diet.  I'm going to have dessert after supper to increase my calories. I got one with nice natural pronounceable ingredients so I don't have to feel like I am poisoning myself.  I fully intend to get my calories to the amount I am supposed to so that my body has a break from this deficit.  I need the proper hormones to kick in so that I can get through this plateau that is making me positively insane. (Short trip to insane, some might note.)

The weather is horrid - perfectly miserable and cold.  I haven't gotten out to walk with the doggie for several days now.  I'm going to try to brave the cold, if only briefly, this afternoon - I need to move myself before I grow roots.

Happy Sunday!