Saturday, December 4, 2010
Dec. 4: The Plan
I then did some shopping for our family that we have adopted through work this Christmas. Since I work with guys, I mostly got money instead of gifts for the family. Hey, I can always shop, especially when all the money does not come out of my bank account!
I've made a plan. It isn't earth-shattering or anything. I'm simply going to do what works - and I know it works from successfully doing it before.
I'm going to weigh, measure and count. Simple and idiot-proof. I just have to do it.
My kitchen scale is out on the counter with new batteries in it. My measuring implements are washed and ready in a bowl. Tomorrow I will map out my meal plan, cook and pack my lunches, all nicely measured out.
I've also determined a couple of other things. *'s comment in my post "Have You Ever Felt Beautiful?" really got me to thinking about my self-esteem. Instead of shooting for a body like the models in Oxygen, I'm going to be inspired by people like Christina Hendricks. I'm going to put real effort into my appearance now, instead of waiting to be skinny before I do something to my hair besides scraping it back in a bun. I deserve to feel beautiful whatever my weight, and I intend to put forth real effort to do so.
I'm going to try really hard not to sweat the actual pounds. I've always liked myself voluptuous, but felt pressured to be thinner. I remember a day in my late 20s. I wore this clingy navy blue dress and men flirted with my all day long. I was about 170 pounds at the time. When I met my ex-husband for dinner, he criticized what I was wearing and told me that someone my size should not be wearing something fitted like that. Of course, despite the 10 people that thought I looked great, the one that mattered caused my self-esteem to come crashing down.
I guess the lesson I (we) can learn from that, is that we can't please everyone. The first person to please is ourselves, and then the rest, the really important people will follow. In the immortal words of Dr. Seuss, "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."